Monday, February 14, 2011

Essence of Life

Searching for the missing

Essence of life

I looked every where

Is there a meaning

In this emptiness

Why sun sets

Why the sea waves fall

Why stars shine

Only in dark

Why the scent of your smile

Floats away, every time

I try to hold on

In my cupped palms

I gather the grains of sand

Left by your foot prints

In my heart

I smell the sunsets

…and your shadow

About to drop

In the spray of salty breeze

All over my yearning heart

The ledge of sand still waits

Where you sat down to count

Countless stars

– Fencing the endless horizon

Of this dark night

All still there, waiting

Remembering and living your smile

There was so little space between us


Now the ocean has filled the gap

As we sit across, in our desert spaces

Orion’s belt still shines bright

Every lonely night

With the star

You gave me as farewell gift

You know, I was there tonight too

Like every dark night

Looking for you

Essence of life


ॐ नमः शिवाय

Om Namah Shivaya

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Can I see you now

Desire to see you now
Is so heavy in my heart
That I can almost sink it in tears
Om Namah Shivaya

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Deep inside her I sleep

Deep inside her I sleep
The sound reaching out to me from the sea
Is not what I desire
Or even want to hear
But still it reaches out to me
Through the open window
Of the high rise building, where I am enclosed in
And trying to live and close
But still the Window remains
A window out to the sea
That I can not close.

Even if I try hard or desire harder
The window glass that I broke
The other night
In frenzy of the remains of my desires
Unbroken, unfulfilled.
In the stupor of alcohol induced passion
And call of the stormy night
The window remains just a window
Nothing more and a lot less
Glassless, desire less and view less
To the open world.

Still I didn't hear the cry
Or the sound of waves
Pounding on the beach, few hundred yards away
Still I let my heart break into pieces
On the breakwater
That walks out
Few hundred yards deeper into the deep sea
And I see
The waves breaking against it
A break out from the prisons of earth
Out to the sea
Try as hard as waves might
Could not stop breakwater from moving in depth
And deeper still

Then Why still
All the time the Sea calls me?
Is it free from stopping, bonding and holding
The Breakwater free from breaking me?
Does it want me to come
Merge in her depths
Just like the path that sinks in her
After few meters of walking along, with me.

Or is it just a sign - an omen
Of my solitude
All alone
Like the sea
Even though Rivers, clouds and the horizon
Sink into her depths and be within.

Why? Why?
She is not with me, now
When she was with me
Long lives ago
("Long time" if you will!)
And she is not coming back to sink
Into my depths of desires, needs
Or in my intense pleasure
Or, my darling,
My watery grave with me.
ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya

Love, Lust and Desires to BE

Love, Lust and Desires to BE
There is a thin line
Between love and lust
Between sea and sky
Between me and you

Such a fine line
That I can see
Touch it from
(Enclosed in the high rise monster
That mostly dot the sea )
I am reaching out to be.

From here, I hear
-Silence is whispering to the sea
Waves percolating through the window
Where darkness of my erotic thoughts
Seep in through the night's gateway
A window with three glass frames
Barred, framed and up-curtained
Unveiled and naked.
From here I see

From here I can reach out
And tear them apart
The love and the lust
The entangled Sea in the sky
And cleave out
A divide between
With my desire

Some time I want to be - BE
Some times Sea in all its thrashing about
With waves and tsunami's just want to BE too
Some times the sky
With its dark cloud and their silver linings
Just wanna BE

Some times all of us want to
Reach out
Separate love from lust
And desire just to BE
Just to be in love
Pure, undiluted, undefined
Just Love
Love to be
ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya

Monday, August 09, 2010

Burning Bridges...

Burning Bridges
Sitting alone
Burning her bridges
Piece by rending piece
Even before my heart could smell
The acrid smoke of breaking
The bridge is down
Under the bridge

Heart tries hard to keep
The fire from going on hurting, flame by flame
Her face, turned away
In the flicker of the burning lights
Refuses the bits food that he feeds
His dying love, and dies at last.

Made of blood, as foolish as it sounds;
Memories drip, from my bleeding heart
And love cast her name, again and again
On the sands of time
Waves upon waves, sea in vain
Wipes the effort, again and again

Why do I write
Why do I write on the sands
Knowing it will be wiped out
In no time, but still I do
As I know she is oriented
Towards Sea - the sea of humanity and of love

His bridge still is not burned, while she has
Burned her bridges
Life times ago
Om Namah Shivaya

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Unconditional Love

I love you
Not because of you
But because of me
Not because of your beauty
But because I am beautiful

I love you
Not because you need my love
but because I need my loving you

I love you
Not because yesterday or day before yesterday
But from ages
From many life times
Your soul and mine
Loved not you or me
But each other's togetherness in the heart

Lived and died
On the banks of eternal river of various lives
On the clouds of moon lights
Among stars and its sunshine
Among the sea and its high tides
In each other's heart.
Om Namah Shivaya

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Alone on the beach

She wanders
Move in and out of my thoughts
Like waves upon waves
That crash on the sandy beach
She weaves a cosmic dream
With her foot prints in my heart.
Om Namah Shivaya

A Bridge Across Forever

She walks alone on the beach
Tidal waves, stormy sea
Me and my dreams
Om Namah Shivaya

Thursday, June 10, 2010


The valley silently
Unfolded herself
As you walked across
To sit beside me
And smile
The birds talked to
Tall and silent deodar trees
In their melody
And you reach out to
Hold my hands
Smiling through the distant stars
She leaned and rested on my shoulders
As the breeze sighed
And she whispered
I missed you
And I turned around
To find you
Far, far away
I still kissed her
Om Namah Shivaya